Wednesday, 11 May 2016

I'm much more me when am with you.

Love is an eminent feeling. For sure it is. No other love, but between two souls, two limpid hearts and glistened personalities. For so long, I have heard different "love stories" but definitely not this one. Actually, the ones said, or rather posted on social media, and after a week its done. Goes missing in action then comes back with another one. The circle continues. Heartbrats style. I honestly respect that.   Ujiy

Yes, am in love. I would smile and feel it from my nerves. Romeo and Juliet was just a set text. Love echoes in me, deep sounded to my eyes. At the most unexpected time and place, you just would carry on with normal life, its not the tingly feeling you get when you see a crush, its so not! I miss words to explain. But as I type this my mind is so oriented to the imperfect person I see perfectly. Days are made. Each second counts, and counts as well with the amiable soul, my 100%. I would call him Mr. 100% and its so small to get to a compliment.

Though he keeps saying he got the key to my tiny heart, I guess that's so different on my side. He got both the key and my heart to himself. How mean that surely is! Ever seen swans swim in ecstacy and sound mood? Its more of that. Then the care, if I did anything right in my life, was when I handed my heart over, to the golden hands. I'm much more me when I'm with him.

Then I love the teamwork, togetherness, the fun and motivation we get from each other. Its more than just love. More of realising dreams together, doting moments and hitting targets. I know, I know its not gonna be easy. Its gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, just you and me everyday. How will the good things in life be without you? My heart is and always will be yours. My love. I would talk ages about this heart dweller. Like he puts stars in the sky? Its a heart's feeling. Felt in millions of ways, unexplainable. Never moved.

The king of my heart, I have fallen for his laugh which is utterly contagious. It would echo even when he's not around. I've fallen for his smile, which makes me giddy for no reason at all. I've fallen for our late night talks, when 1 am arrives far too quickly. I've fallen for our jokes, which I'll remember days later and burst into laughter. I've fallen for every second I get to spend with you, even if those seconds will always leave me wanting more.

You are my best friend, my human diary and my other half. You just mean the world to me. I love you!

Monday, 9 May 2016

Twinges of Customer Service in Mombasa.

I haven't lived or known any other place better than the Coast of Kenya, Mombasa, to be exact.The interaction and the co existence is quite okay. The relations with outsiders, not so bad. Yeah, not so bad. At most they're from out and they deserve slight hospitality but not the all.
There's something particular about businesses in Mombasa. It got a Central Business District of its own very well yes, but amazingly enough the people from Mombasa are not "CEO's" in such thriving businesses. From high school, not quite exposed by then, I would really wonder why this happens so. Personally, am much passionate about opening my own shop, chains of shops precisely but would really want to know why people in Mombasa are never emancipated or moved to open any. Niches are there, many market niches I wouldn't lie. But why? You wouldn't find a buibui lady neither would you find a typical man, and when you do, they are manning the shop, that's not theirs.
This day came. Just after my finals. I had started a one-month fitness schedule, shading the extra we say. Each good day after, I would pass through a narrow walkway, so on this particular day, I realised there was a juice and fruits parlour close by. As hungry as I was, I ran like a hyena on sight of a carcass. Fresh pressed juice on sale! To make it sound better, a native Swahili lady owned it. "Yaaaas! This is all I needed." I thought. A glass was going for fifty shillings, very reasonable. But as my jubilant mood took the best part of me, I just realised there was no welcoming nor customer embrace. I stood for around five minutes. Then the lady shouted.
      "Sasa umesimama unataka tukusaidie vipi!"
It was so unexpected. I just walked away. The nice fresh smell of fresh juice was now smelling like rotten eggs. Does she actually think am so desperate for her juice? I was done. I expected her to attend to me. I cannot stand and just order, I need to know what is available, who was to tell me this, if not her?
That aside, my friends and I remember the day we took a matatu very early in the morning to attend an annual forum at the social hall. Feeling involved and part of the society we were very eager for the day. Before we'd chose which matatu was friendly we just got in one, it looked nice and cozy, that's the most we needed from a pleasant morning. Off we went. He took the fare and by my side a lady was less 10 shillings. I was not so engrossed in their conversation till it got bad, bad words and raw sounds. God help us! The lady's face was burning red. I would feel her rage. Its more of human to understand that she missed 10 bob, but the scoldings and scorns were really loud we could not take it. Even after paying, he would still murmur. This irritated me big time. It would not even buy a packet of sugar, neither breakfast. Most I could do from 10 shillings was buy airtime, which gets done sooner than you know it!
Our finals results were out, not as bad as we had expected but good enough to get us entrances to Universities, with quite good courses. As part of the formality, a stamp was needed from the education offices. My first time here, from the sight of the office set up, I didn't like it. There was smoke smell, littered all over and houseflies swinging to their best. The furniture was very old. Am quite heavy, was so afraid I would break the benches if I would seat, I didn't. I got so sweaty in a minute. The ladies would not attend to us. They were talking about a colleague's wedding, how it was a big fail. Laughing out to the top of their voices. Something was stirring hot in me, I gained courage, moved forward kindly requesting the lady to assist me. She lowered her spectacles, and looked at me straight into the eye, the way goat matata looked at his kids in the nursery texts. She retorted being tired, it was too much on my side I just got back on her face. Sooner than I knew it, I was accused of calling her names and got in a rotten smelly cell already. For what mistake done? These are government offices for you! Where they say its free services. I don't see free services in government offices. We pay more than we use in our taxes. A whole 30% off our salary. Is that really free? Its even much costly than paying for private entities. If only!
Recently, on the gate from school, a tuktuk driver with a wide smile welcoming you on board and off we took, good customer service I thought. I would even just board on anytime, anyday if at all I would find access to the same. Others would be a big piss believe me. So on our way we chit chat on this or that. Then he tells me he came across an advert on county jobs, but he is so negative on getting it, explaining really well that the jobs at the county level were not for the people in Mombasa. It got interesting. I just interrupted with my previous experience with the swahili ladies in the offices, probably that's the reason you do not see many of them in the offices.He sided with me on this, that they need white collar jobs and are very lazy, there output is minimal. For once, someone said it. So he also made me think, in Kongowea, probably the largest market, you would not find a swahili man or woman selling. A cocktail origin of highland tribes and the Mijikenda. Or also the hardworking digo ladies who even have to cross the ferry each single day. This is effort we see not from Mombasa, in the outskirts to Mombasa.
They make money out of the small, pay school fees for their kids and also build houses up country. But where are we? We got alot of talk and less action. Empowerment teams are like table shows nowadays. Or rather gossiping arenas for women and meet up points. On weekday nights, you would find men clustered along Mama Ngina drive, chewing their teeth out. Listening to old music and whistles when a cute lass passes by. This is the Mombasa for us. The rudeness of officials at offices, rudeness and gross attitude at their places of work, then wonder why there businesses don't flourish. Each tribe in Kenya would be associated with some work piece, but is there any for the Swahili? I always thought it was a stereotype being called lazy till I came across several. What a shame!
The little time I spent in Kisumu, at a place called Lwang'ni, with fresh tilapia just from the lake. The lady would come for you from the moment she sees the car parking, assist you with bags and get you comfortable then serves you to her best! I do not like fresh water fish mostly, but will definitely not miss the visit each time I go to Kisumu. I did not regret it. You would not even feel bad for your money, as much as you spend.
But as for Mombasa, our twinges for good customer service will still hurt. Maybe when it is fully taken, to its leadership, they would then realise ... but it will have been very late.

Light to note.

My tear is not just like any other, though its hard to admit in the open, but on a fine note, I cry to soothe. I cry to warm and snug my heart, to bring radiance to myself most. It washes away the pain, it is my source of vigor. As weighty as my tear is, it carries most with it, sends away failures, flows down the raw deals and as I wipe my watery eyes, there are clear visions to what I see, my triumph, my achievements, my success.

Maybe a few would understand, but the closest hurt the most. Its never in our heads that at times someone close, who should be your source of hope and inspiration, love and affection pierces you to the deepest parts of your inner self. The world is so mean, we lose direction at some point, its never the end of the times. Through the little mistakes someone notices, brings out great men and substantial women. Not just any kind of substance, the air they would spread in the end would desire much more than mere talks. Actions and success. Nothing but success.

Patience, as the most important virtue teaches me alot. It lets me anticipate for the better, knows that there's a day things will change, life would not be the same. Where others celebrate pulling you down literally, show them that's indeed your energy. You know what you want at the end. The most successful is he who always stands alone, Like Ibsen says but, at times, you would find your strength alone and in people too. People whose talks, times, faces and moments change you big time. You walk away like this was a time lived! How surprisingly different people are. Like would you really lose anything being an inspiration to someone?

I love when I feel a sense of importance, the opinionated and subjective people never got a place in my life. My life is mine to live, to cherish and to relish my destiny. The plans ahead of me are wholesome. All aim for the stars when they want to land on the moon, I would aim for the moon so I fall on the first star at my worst. You always give yourself the highest you can achieve, no one knows you better than you. When you sum it all up in the end, you have you to blame.

Just because something is not happening for you right now, it does not mean it would not happen some other time, the power, the compassion and the solidity of your dreams should never hold you back. What always matters is what is forthcoming. The past should be left in the past, otherwise it can destroy your future. Live life for what tomorrow has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away.